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at night of course so much adventuring leaves something pained just one of these inner children frozen at some point i could try to ask what to do with this insatiability is annoying at best inconvenient at centrist torture in reality or something’s tortured by years decayed & rotting over colonies of worms & millipedes they work harder than me in some ways they’ll become me in some ways that house stood for things i’d get in so much trouble if i recalled & reconciled & took a gander from the cave usually i’m chasing sometimes it seems you’ve forgotten day one of head scratching humidity was day one of creation in some sense at the time seventh grade was the last thing i made my way through & most of it was made by me some bullshit just playing itself out
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where truly am i concealed in shadows miss the marked flickering candle dance fluttering moths timeless imprints etching calligraphy retina spontaneous flavors fill the air i'll construct a haven with blankets nestled in a corner where the floor plan creates recesses crackling walls & distant calls from below i become the fuel for the unaware a presence in gaze a spastic nightmare split & daring memories of whispers conversing with wind in languages yet to come all alone before i could crawl i searched for something undefined
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oOoOO Big Stretch
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hang on hang on the words are coming i’m taking this to congress! i’m taking this to congress! no wonder my timing is always off we’re working with machines! they’re so perfect miscalculating it’s gotta be someone’s fault! i’m taking it to congress don’t react you don’t wanna make them react & put you in more danger wide road just 25 feels unintuitive to go that slow nah it’s much more than just a bad day a bad day doesn’t do that like the wounds will lurking in the shadows as generic as that sounds i’m not gonna utter the words one thousand or one hundred
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clouds & jumping bounces & sleeping pink fairy dust in orange soaking some blues as well in easton maryland new concrete desolate progress looking up & looking out was looking somewhere
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humans were given water of forgetfulness so we can be fully human
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objects aren't real they are abstract therefore not just influencing the image but using these things in the image to create so many unreal things that gift wrap my fly trap with bees gnats & ants on top he often traces images anyone coulda snapped them search generic stock photos library products aardvark reports i might collage is there a way to make my skin a little less pink? there were pink & blue lights blasting my face seems more lit up like it was at 24 i do remember you saying something about multiple spotlight placements & composites do you think it’s possible to clean up the stray hairs on my shoulder! i might’ve found samples & contexts & forming one another copyright cut out eyes illustrate someone a swamp monster’s someone wrongness in generating replicas of ideas you may have in the future or once before of a wasteland of entities she needed me so she called me in maryland & said i may or may not tolerate your boy but i need you can we plz chill i’m gonna die on you but what do you expect? that’s what we do & that’s what you signed up for& so it happens again & again & again but don’t worry #whosavedwho #siamesebreakfast in the style of the ones in that book we should’ve gone much further we should’ve enveloped the secrets drowning voices poking out hello i am here now again i’ve always been here but it’s time to turn off the lights byeeee get yourself stuck in it bye
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yellow eyes maybe melancholy in love & sidelined hope truly the ‘i am’ is waiting really the ‘i am’ is the watching intervention-less or maya stagger, stagger, crawl leaving a trail lets open up this pit waver at the side door of the helicopter infinite parachutes mouth hole hangs open ready to suck out the poison
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open open all the windows & the doors there’s so much breeze moving through my house i was pulling you in & out of how could magnetism plant itself within you & beyond the final frontier your promise will bolt lock you to a bed you might dream of dancing in another home you say this now there’s one thing that’s for sure in the state all of this is in no one could possibly find any way to stay so they chain themselves until the bonds rot
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more than most zones i overflow out front coffee sun silence the screen displays a simple film reflection hologram refraction squeak & stutter in the tree tops low-level hum in my body
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i love watching the evolution of trees from summer to autumn to winter on my walks every day it’s exciting to see which trees turn what color first i feel proud of them one day out of the blue where i would normally walk underneath a towering tree of green leaves the next day i am walking through a pile of crunchy leaves & looking up at bare limbs it’s like wow you did it! finally! i’m so excited for you
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Kill Me In My Man Cave
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air molecules expand to fit my smoke & my mirrors on this fine purple evening its 39 degrees fahrenheit better crack the windows! i love my screen i love my keyboard i love my mouse i love my hole kill me in my man cave kill me in my man cave not yet but later when i am probably gonna die soon anyway i would hide forever under this fucking piece of shit couch from wayfair it’s all broken & cracked with weed ash stains on the cushions oh i become one with my couch especially when süki is putting pressure on my chest drooling into my mouth probably tips of those nails perhaps slightly dug in my beautiful sir he will always be here he will always be here he will always be here just kill me in my man cave
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i turn this water into wine & store it in old skin so you love me from without instead of within i search for love without when it’s born within i don’t guard my aura so without feels within i can resign to “i can’t” without the within may as well grow accustomed to without while you’re within since you soon will gravitate to without from within
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the river must’ve come from somewhere it just may be this semi-permeable membrane after lives are all kinds of different things at once i wonder if we carry over our traditions or if they wash up on the sides of the banks at least for the flash doesn’t matter however i am grateful for the veil as it has its purpose i am thankful for maya as it has its perks & consequences i guess is it okay if i just make up for it all during the flash i’m completely & totally okay with the debilitating pain i sit down at my desk with my pencil & my apple & i practice my cursive for me & you
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why did it make the fall why did we leave here for here couldn’t we have skipped it the death surely this is not the only way to learn you have school! you have school! you have the matrix movie! just tell me where i can hook up my modem
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you might wanna let me speak hey when you’re finished talking take a quick breath i actually have a lot to say it’s pretty important every single minute detail is extremely extremely important the weak force & the strong force depend on it listen i am looking for i am looking everywhere for signs can we hyper-deduct hypersensitive information please feed me both sides of our brains using basic utensils the napkins don’t even need artwork on them heart-to-heart me but don’t you want to fix it with me? talking about instruction manuals but you don’t love me? smiling sweating emoji!
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i can’t do this i asked for help you let this multiply you showed me myself you told me the answer i am the listener i can’t hear you there is this fog you let me paint i am god i am the victim i made this house this is the house the lord hath made this is hell i kill myself
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skull125
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there is no stopping a thought purple brontosaurs tap dancing in the corner that’s where i stood as a child every once in a while sometimes speaking’s wrongness landed us in some delusion of a separation from the one all my books all over the floor i said i couldn’t believe this was my life this is it man! i could never flow fluid my breath leather jacket stomach all fucked two feet one kick premature objectify tammy twirly hair backstage they did the bad thing the bad way in the bad hall
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nervous inside the marmalade cave aware of the dissociation from awareness compelling spikes & conviction there’s this idea that these tasks are music relentlessly yanked away must pour into the cpu must pour into the cpu hard to function otherwise i thought i could squeeze the drops burn them at some point & the cave reeled me or i jumped on the carpet very nervous now the joy of tasks arrive at any time any time now
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i drool before death i refuse to go i don’t know why this is the kingdom the kingdom is within you i can’t die it won’t rain i hate myself i am made of love i love hating myself hate is made of lack lack is unreal i am that i am i dig me up you plant me down i’m in the bowels i swim to the top you feed me mud i bless the thorn such holy grace such fucking pain i dream of the lotus my push is krishna’s pull you created me i deny me you already see it all
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i wasn’t disturbed but i was dreaming i was made for lyrics & victims i wrote out for my endless path of very little people every inch i crawl back i crawl away little did i know as roedown was made tiny & there was no response & all i swam in was in the mirror in the morning something crushed itself or was crushed by these things that want me to be here now
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there is so much more to play out but it's time to work i drew little mushrooms & looked up psilocybin in the dictionary encarta 95 didn’t really mention them in any elaborate capacity i asked my dad about the 311 lyrics a grown man confided in me illegal things you learned from that day forward don’t trust an 11 year old with stories about your acid trips because i will tell my parents so back to the turn of the century in the back of my pastor’s suv he called it “the exterra” he was so proud of it he wasn’t stupid but so much was happening so much was extended i swear my organs were insects she had a warm beer in her backpack chugged it outside youth group
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i want to pray for help but the pain-body wants to feed i insist on being healed i insist on being healed help me help me what are you waiting for okay fine you’ve left this thorn here in my side making me contort naturally stoplight down the street pleading with the kid in the opening credits of arlington road but why why is it i need to learn what is it you need me to know just fucking tell me in a way i can understand if i am not all ears show me how i can be open them up why wouldn’t you tell me i must not be able to hear the answer what is in my way what do i believe that isn’t true what are these alarm bells for i can’t taste an entrance i can’t smell a window i can’t feel a doorbell scream it all at me force feed me
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~instrumental~
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Angelwings Marmalade Chicago, Illinois
i’m convulsing, peeing, crying, smoking weed, relaxing, sleeping, having weird dreams, jogging backwards, smiling upside down, feeding my cats, eating my cats’ food, throwing up, etc. all right there on the dance floor half asleep.
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